I miss japan so bad..however, idk why but it is also reassuring to remind myself that i cant go back till at least some time in august, 2018. Moreover, i made a girlfriend for the very first time in my life and i wouldnt wanna leave her here. If she stays here, im happy to stay here too. The thing is, she hates an airplane and thus she hesitates to travel over 9000 miles to japan just like i did. She does like japan and i teach her japanese pretty often. Im happy that my capability of handling japanese turns out this usefulness and actually makes her happy.
 After all, im totally clueless about my life ahead and it's not a long matter of time like 20 or 30 years; it's about what's gonna happen in the next 3 to 4 years. Is it normal that you have no idea what'll happen in those span of years? Well, probably my life is meant to be something really different from the other. Haha, just as proved by having a Hispanic girlfriend, my life was already different from most of Japanese youths when i'd decided to study in the US. It doesn't really matter how different my life is from yours thou. Comparison seems to be my habit.. Anyway, after all, what matters the most is whether or not you are happy. Maybe it is okay to fail a semester. What determines okay or unacceptable is yourself. If i prioritirize my gf over grades, that could be an answer too because anything can happen in this crazy world. I'll give a little try for my grades thou. And let's see what happens in the next couple of months...